Through My Life's Love Journey

We all have had our fair share of the heartaches and heartbreaks and as funny as it may sound, but I’m actually glad they happened as these times have thought me  a lot about myself, people, love and life in general. No doubt love is great and as a matter of fact, it’s a wonderful feeling but the excruciating pain its ripple effect inflicts on us makes it dame easy to change that smile we once had to an upside down frown, which I believe logically explains why there’s such a thin line between love and hate. However, I am most appreciative of these moments and they are actually one of the major high notes of my journey through life but what I still find hard to explain is how something that brought so much joy can change so quickly to cause us angst and make us cry so badly.

Who am I? I am that guy, that individual, a bad boy turn good and swiftly growing to be the man he was created to be, who hasn’t just been heart broken by women he gave his heart to and loved unconditionally but has also broken a couple hearts to, so I guess that qualifies me to talk about love as I’ve been through it all; the good, the bad and the ugly when it comes to the matters of the heart. Growing up as a kid, all I ever wanted was to love unconditionally and sincerely but I still can’t remember how and when I managed to loose myself, my priorities and goals as regards relationships, only to fall in love with a selfish and heartless me, who activated the beast mode in me and hurting a couple pure and innocent soul in the process and just before you castigate and bury me alive, love already did, trust me.

You know, love knows how to fight its own battles and it’s true what they say about karma fighting back and hunting us when we least expect, and that dude if he was human must have hated my guts so badly, as he had a first row seat to my life and never hesitated to pay me an uninvited visit each time I got my hands dirty after a fair game of card. Apparently, I have always had to learn the hard way and hardly got away with anything I did wrong. I have had to pay back in full and double sometimes and that basically explains my recent records of the heartaches and heartbreaks but thanks to grace, I haven’t given up on love and never will. Through my life’s love journey, I have learnt a lot about women, life, love, hate and relationships and I’ve come to understand so much as regards putting my cards plain on the table and keeping my hands clean if I don’t want that same fire I’m igniting through my lies to turn back to burn me.

Love is kind and patient and a loving heart, pure and tolerant, it makes excuses for the one it loves. However, let’s be careful not to abuse its privileges or we watch it turn back real quick and aggressively that is, just like a rattle snake whose tail has just been stepped on. The truth is, for every good heart you allowed to cry attract a million chocolate boxes to another who’s just playing with yours and anticipating the day to say goodbye. Life is a bitch, isn’t it, but so are your words if they don’t percolate with the truth. The way you lay your bed, so you’ll lie in it. If you give me lemons, I’ll bring some vodka and we can mix it up and start a party, that’s what love is meant to be about; helping and complementing each other. You can’t leave others in the dark and expect to be shown the light. If you throw jabs at me, you can be rest assured that there’s someone out there heading your way with a knockout punch.  Whatever you sow is what you reap, period.

You know, I’ve spent quite a number of years as an ignorant kid sagging my pants as I walked through the surface of the earth and most of which I had the choice of dressing right and staying sharp but I chose to act immature regardless. Through these times, I’ve also had the opportunity of finding peace with the old selfless me that wouldn’t hurt a fly but my ego had to meet the tiger in me and that got things pretty messed up. Now what am I trying to say? We are filled with choices each day and solely responsible for the consequences of whatever decision we choose to take. God wouldn’t force His will on us despite being the creator of the universe and neither will life. You are as good as your last decision because that gives birth to the next phase of your life so be careful when making these choices.

I will like to conclude by saying that love happens to define our existence in so much way than we actually think, it is the true essence of life itself and we are nothing without it. Even the creation of the earth and everything in it, which includes us of course, was done out of love and you’re dead the moment you cease to exude it.  However, the funny thing about it all is that there is no manual to how to love, it happens naturally. Any love forced is lust and headed for the bin. Through my life’s love journey, I’ve seen people been cheated on and hated for been too caring and loving, and on the other hand, I’ve seen people been loved and cherished for lying and treating their spouse like a piece of trash, it's just funny, the ways of love. You know, I’ve heard a million definitions to this four letter words I've spent the last couple of minutes talking about, but if only we look deep enough, we would realize that it’s only love that can truly explain itself.  Just be you, be ready and love will find you. True love I say is you finding that part of yourself that says I’m ready. We don’t find true love, true love finds us.

Kay Magnate

Music, The Violin Of Life

Music is the art of science of combining vocal or instrumental sounds (or both) to produce beauty of form, harmony and expression of emotion. The oxford advanced learner's dictionary defines music as sounds that are arranged in a way that is pleasant or exciting to listen to. It's the written or printed signs that represents the sounds to be played or sung in a piece of music.

Music is life and to so many people, it's the reason they are alive. You might deprive someone like me for instance of his food for a whole day and I will do just fine but try depriving me of my music for just a second and you'll find an human body just lying frustrated on the bed with no soul in it, it's more like you disconnected me from life. Apparently, music is like food to the soul, a merry heart is a joyful heart, a joyful heart is a sound mind and a sound mind is a musically inclined one.

The truth is, music does more to the human body than we can ever imagine. Basically, it does more than just bringing sound to its ears. Just as water is very essential for the digestion process that takes place in the human body, so is music extremely important to maintain stability in the human head, it lubricates the mind. So many things go on in there and a little piece of music could serve as a filter that eliminates all the stress imposed on the brain due to the work overload and excess thinking undergone in the course of carrying out the day's work, thereby bringing a suiting feel to the ear, body and soul.

Fundamentally, it is life preserving. Just as Paracetamol is a pain killer, so is it an automatic stress reliever, it enlarges the life span. It is innovative, suiting, music is the violin of life. Subscribe to its manual and enjoy the bumpy ride through the world of class and exclusive instrumentation. Music is love, music is togetherness, it is an ambassador for peace. It cuts across all race, culture and gender. Inherently, music is me, music is you, music is us, it's the reason we all gather in lounges and refreshment homes to unwind and meet with friends.

Music connects us to life itself, a life without it is like a shoe without its lace. And the truth is, no matter the genre of music that catches your fantasy, there's always some sort of satisfaction met when the earphones romances your eardrum and when you just allow it breathe out ceaselessly through your speakers. It calms your nerves and sets you in the mood, taking away all your worries and preparing you for the task ahead. It is inspirational, motivational and empowering. And just like style, it gives a mouth to mouth to your personality, thus bringing it to life. A good investment in music is a good investment of your time because a well relaxed brain will always produce for you.

Just as leaders spend their leisure time catching up on a good book, you can spend yours listening to good music in as mush as you're feeding on the right content. Music is the vehicle that transports you instantly from the valley of depression to the city of creation. It's a weapon that forces the enemies of fatigue and boredom to be dispelled quickly and instantly from our lives. It's like a current in the ocean of life moving us towards the palace of our dreams. When everything around is dying, music lives, so lets carefully rebuild the atmosphere of our expectation, hope and enthusiasm. Music is life, don't stop the music.

Kay Magnate

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

I thank you for been such a good friend, a lover, an acquaintance and a counselor. I look back to the times I took my anger out on you and I sincerely apologize for those emotionally spills I must have thrown at you because I know how dramatic I can get when I loose my head. Well, some may wonder why I called you my lover but then, who else was so kind and passionate enough to accept me with her long loving arms and kiss me goodnight each time I fall asleep in between those pages.

I can never thank you enough because despite the times I messed up your sheets with my tears, you stayed warm, pulling me close and telling me that it will be alright. People keep diaries for different reasons and staying in touch with reality happens to be on the top on the list for me. If not for you, I will probably be left with just a glimpse of the past but I'm grateful for such a retentive memory that you've got, the past fits right into the present and with you I'm guaranteed a clear sight of the future because it's wonderful how you're able to inter-connect, and all I have to do is just make the pen bleed.

Who knows me better than you? I could have said my mother but where was she when those knives came piercing through my heart and my first love was gone without saying goodbye. The girl I gave my heart to hurt me so bad but despite the fact that I wasn't totally faithful to you, you still accepted me with open arms and helped me mend my broken heart. You didn't just sit there in anger considering how unfaithful I was with those times I chose her over you, you still showered me with your love and attention and subsequently accepted other girls too.

Apparently, you've been a sweetheart and you've not only been there for me when I was down and out because I vividly remember the times I got those calls; when the good news came, you were the first I shared them with. I popped a bottle of champagne when I could and you just watched me dance when I couldn't. We share a perfect bond and thanks for safe guarding those passwords too. As a matter of fact, you've been a life saver and I'll never forget that interview I had and my phone had crashed earlier that week. I had lost the details to the email I applied with but you gave me a life line and allowed me proceed with the application because you did that which you do best.

You're everything to me and my future wife and children must be prepared to accept you in their lives because you've become a very special part of me that I can't do without. And truth be told, apart from God who created me and whose love is forever guaranteed, you're the only one who's friendship is not based on anything because with human, there's always a price to pay. I cherish the day I picked you up, there you were lying on that beautiful shelve of my favorite supermarket. I walked carefully to you in excitement because you looked so beautiful from a distance and those walks were one of the most pleasant walks I've ever had to take.

Dear diary, in you are the secrets of life, the one which I share with you and will someday share with the world. You've been through it all with me; the good, the bad and the ugly, and I appreciate each of those moment, especially when you had to shield yourself from the fire. My memories lies with you and together we would take on the world. How else can I appreciate your unconditional and unending love for me if not by dedicating this piece to you and sharing it with the rest of the world. You occupy a special place in my heart and if there was an award for the world's most amazing diary, you'll clinch the top spot without moving a muscle... Am blessed by you.

Yours faithfully,

Kay Magnate