The Testimony Of A Repented, Apologetic Me

God created us so wonderfully and beautifully and not only did He do that but also gave us dominion over everything he made; both on land, in the air and under the sea. However, many of us have decided to recreate ourselves due to some earthly factors that are swiftly beginning to lead us astray, with selfish innovations having to top that very list but after a careful and critical analysis of the true essence of my creation and what I stand to lose if I perished in my old sinful and lustful ways, I've come to a realization that I've been living a wasteful life and can't afford to spend the very next minute unsure of my eventual end and that orchestrated a change in me and the best thing I've done since my birth was to hit that reset button and today I'm back to my old selfless self that does not only acknowledge but glorifies the Lord and the purpose for which I was created. 

Now many may wonder what inspired the sudden need for a change in me. I mean, why am I just beginning to see the need to fill the vacuum that has been left empty for decades through sin and my lustful desires, why have I been so blind to the fact that I needed God more than He needed me and only just deciding to live righteously after dedicating most of my youthful days to playing the devil's advocate. Well, these and many more out of curiosity would cross our minds but like I always say, it's funny how and when we tend to find God and my story is one of those very funny episodes as love or better still, an heartbreak lead me to God as I remember vividly well how I gave my life to Christ after a breakup that got a grown man crying like a little baby. 

You know, she was young, beautiful, ambitious and very intelligent just to mention a few. As a matter of fact, she had a lorry-load of attributes that a man would die for and that made it so easy to fall in love with her. I was working with an International Holiday company at the time we met and was doing pretty well for myself too. However, I felt unfulfilled regardless and saw a need for a change and the only thing that made sense at the time was to put my creativity in use so I decided to quit my job and sign up for a photography school where my heart had always led me. 

No doubt, I knew it wasn't going to be an easy fit to achieve but I also knew I needed to and had to put in everything I've got; my savings, my time, my heart and my relationship was as stake as well and that imbibed a fear in me but I tried to shake it off, reassuring myself that everything was going to be okay and thank God for His special grace, I was opportune to be accepted into training by one of the best hands in the industry and he mentored me wholeheartedly, at least till the point I gave up and quit like I always did when something seemed too hard and impossible and that's another lesson I'm hoping that you all learn reading this piece because nothing good comes easy and we should never give up on what we believe in, no matter how difficult it may seem to achieve them. The fact that you could start it, you can finish it.

Anyway, back to my story… I started strongly and passionately no doubt but I was beginning to run down on funds after investing so much into acquiring my camera, lenses, paying for transportation in and out of work every day and feeding. It was a very tasking and demanding period for me as I woke up early and worked my butt out each day so as to achieve my goals and make my girlfriend proud but little did I know she had problems with the decision of quitting my job and chasing after something that wasn't visible and realistic, even though she had pretended to be in support initially. But then of course, human will always be human and it's just amazing how God tend to deal with us on a daily without losing His head and yet loving us unconditionally despite our unbearable excesses and that inspires me really. 

You know, she started acting strangely and became so distant and before I knew it, she was out there celebrating her birthday with a new suitor of hers while I stayed on my bed helplessly and sad I must add, because I was low on cash and didn't have the funds to take her out. And as if that wasn't terrible enough, she kept on changing her status on her blackberry messenger knowing fully well that I was on it and will be devastated by it. Apparently, she was already in a relationship with this dude she only just met on Facebook who has been chatting her up and also just got back from Canada and the fact I wasn't where I needed to be financially made it so easy to be tossed into the bin like a piece of trash but yea, she eventually payed for it with a more excruciating heartbreak as she was dumped the second her virginity was taken from her. Good readings….

Meanwhile, I had broken down and almost cried my eyes out before karma came calling and on one faithful evening I decided to take an evening walk to one of my favorite hangouts where I normally get high on my own supply and it was right there I gave my life to Christ while I was puffing on that 'weed' I spent over thirty minutes wrapping due to the state that I was in. I mean, my fingers just kept twinkling as it romanced the rizla. It was that day, the sixth day in the month of June, 2013, a date I still have written on my wall till this very day that I gave my life to Christ in a 'smoke joint' and went on to confess Him on a holy altar just a couple days after because I needed him to console me and help bring back my peace and indeed, He did. And ever since, there has not been any looking back from living aligned to His way, although there are some moment I got carried away but I was quick enough to acknowledge my sins and pray myself back to His loving and merciful hands.  

And with all these said, now I put it out to you, when and what led you to Christ? You know, you don't have to be shy about it. As a matter of fact, you have every reason to be proud of it because that was the best day of your life and should forever be thankful of it. Many have found Christ while locked behind bars, some while lying down helplessly on that hospital bed at the point of death and some were lucky enough to know Him from their youth. However, it really doesn't matter when and how it happened, what really matters is the fact that we know Him, confessed Him and dwelling in Him and only pray that the good Lord continue to give us the grace that we need so as not to backslid and someday we all shall meet and dwell with Him when that trumpet finally sounds. Rejoice!!!

Kay Magnate

I Curse The Day We Met

Follow my blog with Bloglovin: God has created us wonderfully and yet so beautifully but many sadly have decided to recreate themselves to be cruel and heartless all in the name of wanting to acquire material things that are bound to leave just as fast as they came. It is just sad how we chase after riches, selling our soul to the devil in exchange of a mirage that seems to be there but really isn’t. And the truth is, nothing without God grows to stand the test of time and the only thing that grows without hard work are weeds. You can’t grow to become a millionaire overnight and expect to awake the reality of it in the morning without severe future consequences. Trust me, those that actually became true millionaires overnight must have put in countless hours of hard work over the days, weeks, months and even years and the good Lord decided to finally bless and crown their effort, making a testimony out of it.

You know, they didn’t just get their riches duping someone or from a wardrobe that spits out money like a rapper spitting out rhymes. And by the way, you should journey through the pages of our favorite music acts among many others and see how rough they must have had it making a penny from a craft they know so well and are dedicated to and then you’ll realize that making a dine isn’t ‘beans’ and yet some plant the seed, water it, have it harvested and even fry some plantain to go with it all overnight.  What is happening to the youth of our generation? Back in the days, our fathers could count the number of people getting their hands dirty and were so in a haste to make money but these days we can hardly single out a youth living right and not getting his hands dirty, all for the love of money, women and fame just to mention a selected few.

Lamentably, I turn to the pages of the dailies while surfing through my favorite blogs and all I can see are failed parents and I wonder how things got this bad.  Apparently, they’ve worked so hard to breed a bloodsucking generation and you can find on my pages for the first time, a scenario where hard work isn’t awarded for, because they obviously failed us regards. However, all blames shouldn’t be directed to them because I’m sure they put in work over the years and did their own honest bit to raise heavenly children but they refused to yield to their teachings. Moreover, there’s a popular Yoruba adage that says that one should rebirth oneself even after birth and guess what that is simply trying to say is that you should re-enroll yourself back in self-schooling even after graduating from the school of parenting and that I’ll like to call the school of life that totally gets you prepared, guaranteeing you to walk on the right path so you don’t fall off the wrong side.

In other words, there’s no excuse for failure, you’re the only one worth been blamed for your circumstances and I pray it isn’t too late before you start seeing all that you love and chase about so lustfully are just vanity upon vanity that the devils digs your grave with and he sure doesn’t need your permission as you already lost every right and bargaining power the day you crawled to him just like the snake that you are living among men.  And unfortunately and maybe fortunately for me, I seem to have a couple friends or better still, use to have a couple friends walking this lane as I recently just denounced the last one of them and if not for the God in me, it will be right to say I curse the day we met but then of course, who am I to blame?

The truth is that we all make mistakes and I’ve made mine and we can still make amends by deciding to retrace our steps and live right as long as we are still breathing. No doubt, money is good and we all want it but know without a doubt that there’s a problem the moment the hunger is more than a three square meal can quench and I admonish you run to God; the ultimate doctor to cleanse and heal your soul that very minute so you don’t lose it running after earthly pleasure that amounts to nothing but regrets and pain eventually. Deplorably, many have used their children, parent and other loved ones for rituals all to drive the latest wipes in town and many of which have ended up losing their lives changing gears doing a hundred and eighty on the third mainland, cruising in the same automobile that drove them to the devil in the first place but now living the reality of it. Ostensibly, you can’t eat your cake and have it, it’s either you choose life or death and while you’re at it, be sure to know that there’s an extension to that in the afterlife.

And by the way, my pen is in a really good mood and will be leaving you with a third option of living life in death on earth but have in mind also it doesn’t count as that makes you a perfect example of a living dead and you can as well purchase of your casket because you are dead and ignorant to the truth. I love money you know, but love my life even more and wouldn’t trade it for the finest girls in the prettiest bikinis or even a mansion on the Bahamas and a couple billion Naira notes to my name. The bible apprised that we seek first the kingdom of God and every other thing would be added unto us and that’s exactly what I’m doing and you should be doing. Let us not be too impatient, I know how hard it is to struggle through life each day without a penny to your name but I also know how harder it will be to stupidly enjoy life like you think you are now and manage to only get a glimpse at what heaven looks like if at all you’re lucky enough to get a million yard close on your way to the unfortunate end your purchased for yourself out of greed, impatience, foolishness and total disregard for the scripture. A word they say is enough for the wise so think twice before you roll that dice. God bless!

Kay Magnate

Letter To My Unborn, Aborted Child

Baba Dotun, that’s what my friends called me on that sunny afternoon as I walked home from school, my girlfriend had just aborted our baby, a child I didn’t want anything to do with and looking back to those times and how badly I chose to handle the situation, it’s fair to conclude that I was an ignorant, selfish and heartless creator ever close to been called human because I obviously wasn’t at the time and I didn’t just fail you but I failed myself and everything I stood for. I was young no doubt but was also very dumb and childish and if only I could turn back the hands of time, then I guess we would at this moment be getting set to celebrate your 17^th birthday and I definitely wouldn’t have had to struggle for the past 16 years of my life.

Apparently, you were an angel sent to me from above and nonchalantly messed it all up and also killed an innocent soul in the act and only hope my sins are forgiven even though I’ve had to pay dearly but the truth is that we can’t pay enough for taking a life we cannot create and can only continue to ask for mercy and hope someday that helps to pay in full. You know, the past years have been filled with so much drama, it just seems like I’ve been taking a step forward and five steps back when I should have been basking in his grace and I turned what should have been a blessing to more than a decade full of disaster and still paying till this day but hoping for a better tomorrow.

Well, I’ve learnt never to keep dwelling in the past and we can only learn from it and choose to live a better life as we move on. I know that I and your mother failed you but it really wasn’t her fault, I neglected her right from the very moment she told me that she was pregnant and she went through so much pain too and only hope someday she finds a place in her heart to forgive me even though she said she already has. She is a very strong woman and a goodhearted one at that and want to use this medium to thank a very close friend of mine who stood by her through those awful times even though that sure wasn’t enough because she needed my touch to constantly reassure her that everything was going to be fine but I chose to give it to other girls instead.

Son, I can’t count the number of sleepless nights I had and those mornings I woke up and wished you were lying next to me. The truth is, the devil has his ways of coming to steal from us when we least expect and incapable of making the right choices either because of the life we choose to live or the company we chose to keep and now I see one of the reasons why the bible advice that we serve the Lord in our youth because that makes it difficult for the dark faceless one to creep in and cripple a future so bight by a single mistake we make. Wish I knew God earlier, I definitely wouldn’t have picked up those cigarette sticks or poured a glass of champagne, talk more of those dry gins and bottles of my favorite lager beer I took off the crate and buried in me.

And funny enough, I picked up all these disgusting and health wrecking habits just about the time I made the biggest mistake of losing you. Ostensibly, the year 2000 was a deciding moment for me and delayed my destiny by this singular act, thus opening the door for evil to come in and can only thank the good Lord for showering me with so much grace that kept me alive till this day to be the one telling my story. You know, she was about six months gone when the abortion was carried out so there’s a face to this story and I was told he looked just like me and the thought of that kills me even more. Anyway, mum and I through the years have patched things up between us and I am sure she is doing great and misses you too. I am a grown up man now and indeed ready to take care of my responsibilities so please come back son and allow me make up for those lost years.

We can still rock those baggy jeans together, I tend to be growing younger in style everyday despite my white beards and don’t worry as well about the Nike shoes, got the store on a speed dial. I miss you son and today I’m finally free and hope the world learns from this and never mistake their blessing for a misfortune. Nothing is a mistake with God and though it may seem wrong out-rightly but if it’s destiny at work, you can never go wrong. You just have to be very careful diffusing the situation and handling it the best way possible. Our lives have been planned and scripted out even before our creation and let’s not disrupt our journey ignorantly, a single mistake can last us a whole life of pain and regret and that wouldn’t be our portion in Jesus name.

To the great people of the united states of the world, I will like to conclude by saying that this isn’t the time for sympathy and regrets, for the deed has already been done and we can only choose to educate our children so as not to find themselves making such a nasty fall that they might never be able to get up from. The road to destiny is a delicate and fragile one and the devil attacks us just at the time that our glory is about to spring up and shine bright. And to all those who find themselves rocking the same shoes like I did, it is time to stop hating yourself and do something about it.

No amount of pain and regret can change the past but we can choose to forgive our past and change the future. The future lies in our hands and the decisions we make today will determine if we are ready to let go of those bags full of worries and fear of the unknown and choose to run with the right team because there’s nothing you must have done that cannot be taken care of by the mercy of God. You just need to acknowledge your wrongs and repent from your old sinful ways and those lost years can be restored in just a twinkle of an eye. I know because I am a testimony to that and you can as well, God bless.

Kay Magnate

Pulling Down Strange Alters

When we are talking of alters, I want us to know there are so many things that represent alter in our lives. Some started or were raised the day we were born while some started the day we got married just to mention a few and it’s only normal we have a proper understanding of what exactly we are talking about before proceeding, so now the question is, what is an Alter? A alter is a place of connection, it’s a place of power. It can also be referred to as a place of covenant. It’s a place of sacrifice and definitely not a place to joke but a place of auction. Some powers are working in that place and it could be negative or positive. Before alter can come to place, blood has been shed. Like I said earlier, it’s a place of covenant and it serves as a means of connection. And I pray for you that every alter working against you shall collapse In Jesus Name.

A alter like we already know is a place where covenants are been made. Ladies and gentlemen, some people have shed blood in a particular place and have said their children will serve “you”. The truth is, some covenants have been made on your behalf and unless you break that connection, you are tied to that alter because there’s a covenant involved. An oat has been sworn. And a covenant can’t be broken unless the both parties involved come together to agree. I want us to know that the issue of alter is a very serious one and should be taken with all seriousness. There are two types of alters, It’s either you’re operating under an Alter controlled by God or the one controlled by the devil. If yours is controlled by God, I say congratulations but if not and yours is been controlled by the devil, may the power of the almighty set you lose today In Jesus Name.

Why? Satanic alter is a place of destruction while the Alter of God is where destiny is been molded to fulfill its glory. Now having said that, allow me to talk at length on what an Alter really is. I know we now know an Alter is a place of covenant, a place of power but its way beyond that and without taking too much of your time, I will like to break it down for better understanding. First and foremost, an Alter is a place of sacrifice. Any time you approach the alter, whether you are bringing your offering or dancing towards it, always have it in mind that it’s a place of sacrifice. Through an Alter, whether it’s your personal one or not, sacrifices are made to your God or gods, depending on whom you choose to serve.

Secondly, an Alter is a place of blood covenant. It’s a place where covenants are been made. For instance, our fore fathers made covenants with various gods on our behalf and that I must say is the cause of so many problems today. Many made covenants with Ifa, Sango and Obatala just to mention a few. And as Christians, we need to break those covenants before we can be totally free from the works of darkness because an oat was made and covenants are not easily broken unless by the mercy of God. That’s why you see so many women today who can’t give birth because an agreement was made that unless they make sacrifices to the idol of that family or do certain other things unmentioned, they will never hear the cry of a child. This is one out of so many problems faced by many families today but I pray that the Almighty will break every covenant that was made on your behalf that is now affecting your life with his blood In Jesus Name.

Thirdly, an Alter is a place where blood is crying. The good people of the united states of the world, may I announce today that the blood of Jesus is going to speak on behalf of someone In Jesus Name. Whenever a blood is been shed on an Alter, the blood begins to cry. And I’m sure we all understand what it means for blood to cry, it’s a terrible thing. And I pray the Almighty will seize the voice of every crying blood on your behalf and he will set you free from every evil alter that was raised to destroy your destiny In Jesus Name. Furthermore, an Alter is a place of spiritual dining table where food is offered to the spirit. Whether for evil purposes or godly purposes, it serves as a platform where spirits are been fed. For instance, as Christians, we give praises and worship our maker to welcome the holy spirit into our midst, while incantations are been made to usher in the spirit of their gods in evil Alters.

Also, an Alter can be said to be a place of spiritual exchange. As Christians, we worship and honor our mighty God, rendering praises to his holy name and in return he gives us miracles. It’s also a place we make our supplication known, a place we pray and communicate with him in form of prayer request and in return he gives us testimonies and a heart full of Joy. And on the other hand, it also serves as a place of exchange for those who have made up their mind not to follow the ways of the Lord and rather prefers to choose evil over good. There you see people exchanging goats for human lives and little sums for untimely wealth and so on and so forth. For example, according to John 3:16 which says, “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life”, that’s an exchange to redeem our life, and that’s a huge example of an alter been a place of exchange.

Finally, an Alter is a place of fellowship. It’s a place we fellowship in spirit and in truth. It’s a place we worship our maker and fellowship with him; God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. It’s a place of connection. We connect with our heavenly father in spirit, I want us to know that to fellowship goes a long way and whether it’s been done the gospel way or the evil way, we become one with whoever it is we are looking up to and makes it easier to communicate with them. So without a doubt, an Alter is a place of fellowship but the question now Is, who do you fellowship with?

Brethren, you must know that an Alter can work for you and can as well work against you. And in most cases, it’s alters raised with evil intentions that work against us. I pray that every evil alter that has been raised from your father’s house, those raised from your mother’s house or maybe it’s the ones from your in-law’s house that has been working against you, may the Almighty begin to pull them down In Jesus Name. You know, according to the book of Colossians 2:14-16, He has canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross. In this way, he disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities. He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross. In other words, an Alter is a place of deliberation, it’s a place of decision, a place of action and it could either be positive or negative. I want us to know that consciously or unconsciously, alters work against our lives and may the Lord deliver us from evil alters In Jesus Name.

Now, what are the effects of evil alters? To start with, curses can be issued at evil alters, so don’t joke with anyone waging a curse at someone from an evil alter. The truth is, destinies are diverted at evil Alters. It is a place where the devil and his agents pass destructive judgment. Even the children of God are been accused wrongly by the devil and his agents. Basically, people’s lives are been controlled wrongly in evil alters and people working under the influence of such alters struggle to achieve success. Do you know that generations can be dedicated in this alter? The truth is, so many people are living but their destiny is been controlled in these alters. And to put the icing on the cake, most of the things you’ve spent the whole of your life struggling and looking for can be hidden in these alters we are talking about. Basically, it’s a place of destruction, a place of limitation. Now the question is, what’s the way out?

First of all, you need to ask yourself if you notice the presence of any demonic alter in your life and then repent of anything that could have connected you to that alter and renounce your connection to it, if any. Then, go ahead to resist them using the word of God and violently with the help of your prayers, you will kill the priest at that alter. Afterwards, withdraw your name and your virtues from this alter and destroy the Alter by cursing it. Then create a new alter between you and God. However, as I conclude, I want you to know you need aggressive prayers, this is not a child’s play. Get on your kneels and cry out to God and I pray that the Lord will hear your cry and deliver you today from every evil alter that has been raised to truncate your destiny and He will destroy every evil covenant that has been made in the past on your behalf that’s not allowing you live a fulfilled life and wear you a new garment and you will begin to flourish in all that you do In Jesus Name.

Kay Magnate

The Evil In The World

The evil in the world will make a first class student graduate with a pass, it's that same evil that had a potential medical doctor destined to find the cure of a deadly disease drop out of school to end up on the street. I wish I had the words to qualify the magnitude of these four letter words embedded in the world that we have to contend with each day of our lives but some things are just better left unsaid because I hate to under-emphasis the ache the world has been accustomed with and we can only but ask for grace and more grace that's sufficient for each day. Unfortunately, I've seen the brightest kids grow up to be at the bottom of their class and destiny they say cannot be changed but delayed. Well, in my own perspective and looking from an enemy point of view, since it can be delayed, why then worry so much about changing it when we can just frustrate him to an early grave. Now let's be logical, what other changes needed to be done when someone destined to be a lawyer is frustrated to the extent of pushing trucks by the road side and eventually meets his end by the failed brakes of a reckless driver.

You better wake up and stop fooling yourself. I mean, changed or not, what good was it anyway, after all, they ended up not fulfilling their purpose on earth and are now lying six feet under the ground. Well, I don't know about you but I like to see myself as a realist and not get filled by the lies fed to us. The truth is, the more sophisticated the world gets, the more sophisticated the evil in it. Back then, all you had to do was get on your kneels and pray to God and maybe go a day or three days of fasting and there would be a swift solution to your problems, but these days, you'll need to climb up a mountain and walk down a couple of times after you must have undergone a twenty one days of dry fasting just to get an insight of what the problem even is, talk more of what the subsequent steps will be if there were to be any luck of you coming close to finding a solution.

You know, the Panadol that will initially step down malaria cannot even get rid of a slight headache anymore, it just comes to show that the world has become the battle of the fittest and every segment of it has been upgraded and even our pastors have to tighten their trousers properly to cast out a single demon. And the truth is, the world is incomplete without it, I believe it's a way of God moulding us to be the lieutenant and generals he created us to be. Without evil, we won't fully brace ourselves up and know His true worth. So therefore, my writing this piece is not to acknowledge the evil in the world because I believe even a baby newly born into the world comes prepared knowing there are challenges and hurdles ahead to scale through. So if you ask me, am basically writing this piece as a reminder or better still, a wake up call for us all to change our approach to life so we don't end up dishing ourselves in the enemy's plate for them to devour. No doubt God owns our lives and watches over us but we too have a major role to play in it. Even the bible and the holy Quran makes us understand that God helps those who help themselves. So I ask, what are you doing to save guard that precious life given to you?

To overcome the world, first you have to acknowledge the evil in it and be well strapped to go toe to toe with it. But then, I will not tell you who to hold on to because we are all people of different culture and religious backgrounds and the fact am a Christian doesn't give me the right to condemn what you believe in, I can only help show you what the right path is and where following that route leads to. So rather than force my options on you, I only admonish that you to hold on tight to what you believe in and hope you find comfort and safety there. But for me, I've chosen the Lord as the author and finisher of my faith and you can as well, after all, you don't need any permission from anyone, his hands are widely opened and ever ready to accept you into his gates.

And with that said, I also want you to know that it is not just about accepting Jesus, Mohammed or whoever it is you call your God. Like I said earlier, you have a huge role to play too. How do you treat your fellow man, would you destroy or take his life if you had the chance to? What evil words have you prophesied in the life of a fellow human because he hurt you or took something that belongs to a friend? These and many more questions are what we need to ask ourselves and if guilty at any point, then we should be worried because the truth is, the evil we do always finds a way of coming back to us. Remember, when you point a finger at someone, the raining fingers points right back at you and that's why it's so easy for the enemy to destroy and end your life. Basically, whatever you sow is what you'll reap, period. God is not dead, you can't help secure the life of others and someone in the dark takes yours. He's not just going to sit there and fold his arms and watch that happen. And if by any chance he does, then be rest assured that you've paved a way somewhere along the line for that to happen.

It's an eye for an eye, if you live by the sword, be rest assured to die by the sword. You may have given your life to Christ after many years of a wayward life that had you take lives and now living a righteous one, but that doesn't stop the enemy from taking yours when they come for it because you're only paying for your deeds. The only difference is that your heaven has been guaranteed. Many in that scenario would question why God will allow that to happen but then we are so quick to forget that the man that was killed also has a God. Guess that explains why we should be very careful with the choices we make because our past never really goes away and I wish I could go on and on but a word they say is enough for the wise. I conclude, the evil in the world will have a pastor molest his congregation. Apparently, no one is left out of the circuit. The more calling on you, the more the temptation brought your way. And by the way, I purposely used an anointed of the Lord as the case study so that we would know what a little distraction can cause and we can only but continually ask for grace and his grace I pray will be sufficient for us each day.

Kay Magnate