Selfish Us In A Selfless World.

When the title of this piece came to me while I was in the bathroom taking a shower, I got frozen for a bit because I was lost in the depth of the sound of it and needed to take a moment to understand or at least have a clue of what inspiration was bringing to the table and then I thought about the selfish nature of man and how the world has been created so wonderfully and yet so beautifully and how God has given us dominion over everything in it. You know, you can be who you want and what you want to be, you just have to ask yourself what you intend doing with your life.

We need to stop blaming everything on the world, what you ask of it is what it gives, period. Our selfish nature makes life more difficult and complicated than it literally is. We tend to use one another to get what we want in order to attain a particular height but how much longer do we think it will take before we fall. There is no shortcut in life, if you go in through the window, be rest assured to fall right back, only that this time you may fall harder up against your back and might never be able to rise.

Why do we remember one another only when we need something? Friendship these days are built on what the other party has to offer and the moment they seize to do so, we are quick to show them the way out. Gone are the days when one would say “What are friends for if not for inconveniences”, right now the only logical expression worth using is “What the heck are you bringing to the table”. Basically, there is some self-interest behind every friendship. In other words, there’s no friendship without self-interest and that’s the bitter truth. We tend to use and dump one another and the circle just keeps moving on.

What an ungrateful race we are walking through the surface of the earth heartlessly, if our creator was half as selfish as we are, don’t you think he would have had all the ‘red light specials’ to himself and made the babies all by himself even after creation and just put us in the world without a single erection or the ladies having to save their virginity till or before marriage. We are dame so good with using one another. It comes naturally and I guess it should be added to the list of our skill acquisition program and we can get to teach it to our unborn children since it has become a fast and easy way to get ourselves out of the box whenever we find ourselves in an uncompromising situation.

Apparently, whatever we don’t suffer for will never stand the test of time. If you use that lady or gentleman you call your friend to get over your emotional trauma or whatever situation the circumstances of life must have dished at you, be rest assured that a bigger and more nerve wrecking heartbreak is just around the corner. There is no shortcut in life, I repeat. Let us love and appreciate one another for who we are and not what we are or expect to get out of the intending union.

Life would be more easy and splendid only if we begin to see it from a selfless point of view and I believe this goes out to every one of us because even I authoring this piece isn’t left out as I am equally as guilty, at least up till that very moment the liquid soup washed off through my back to the grey shinning tiles of my bathroom floor. However, I decided to live the next minute without a single guilt as I rinsed it all off by the birth of this piece and hope the towel of change is there for you as it was for me to dry it all up and then you can step out clean and ready to fit into a new garment.

A word they say is enough for the wise, you can keep using people all you want but have it at the back of your mind that you’re only helping them pave a way for a greater glory because they will definitely be getting a payback for their good deeds while you bury yourself ignorantly in life’s deepest ocean and you really don’t want to take that dive, trust me. It is a beautiful world we live in and we can choose to help each other rather than use one another. It balls down to partnership basically but the motive is what differs and really matters and that’s where we all seem to fail. You can give me a couple Naira notes because my leg stinks so badly and I’m desperately in need of a new shoe but don’t expect me to polish yours in return.

Until we get to that stage where we don’t expect something back for favors done, life seemingly would be difficult and unrealistic even in our imagination. And the truth is, we can’t imagine what we don’t believe and believing starts with setting ourselves free and that means finding our true self. I wish to go on and on but I rather just stop now when I still can because I don’t seem to trust my pen, it is really bad at patching up wounds and may bleed for days. And with that said, I am grateful for today’s inspiration and pray the good Lord helps us to reconnect with our old selfless selves and begin to love and treat one another with respect and pull each other up as we climb and not break others down to climb. God bless.

Kay Magnate

Letter To My Unborn, Aborted Child

Baba Dotun, that’s what my friends called me on that sunny afternoon as I walked home from school, my girlfriend had just aborted our baby, a child I didn’t want anything to do with and looking back to those times and how badly I chose to handle the situation, it’s fair to conclude that I was an ignorant, selfish and heartless creator ever close to been called human because I obviously wasn’t at the time and I didn’t just fail you but I failed myself and everything I stood for. I was young no doubt but was also very dumb and childish and if only I could turn back the hands of time, then I guess we would at this moment be getting set to celebrate your 17^th birthday and I definitely wouldn’t have had to struggle for the past 16 years of my life.

Apparently, you were an angel sent to me from above and nonchalantly messed it all up and also killed an innocent soul in the act and only hope my sins are forgiven even though I’ve had to pay dearly but the truth is that we can’t pay enough for taking a life we cannot create and can only continue to ask for mercy and hope someday that helps to pay in full. You know, the past years have been filled with so much drama, it just seems like I’ve been taking a step forward and five steps back when I should have been basking in his grace and I turned what should have been a blessing to more than a decade full of disaster and still paying till this day but hoping for a better tomorrow.

Well, I’ve learnt never to keep dwelling in the past and we can only learn from it and choose to live a better life as we move on. I know that I and your mother failed you but it really wasn’t her fault, I neglected her right from the very moment she told me that she was pregnant and she went through so much pain too and only hope someday she finds a place in her heart to forgive me even though she said she already has. She is a very strong woman and a goodhearted one at that and want to use this medium to thank a very close friend of mine who stood by her through those awful times even though that sure wasn’t enough because she needed my touch to constantly reassure her that everything was going to be fine but I chose to give it to other girls instead.

Son, I can’t count the number of sleepless nights I had and those mornings I woke up and wished you were lying next to me. The truth is, the devil has his ways of coming to steal from us when we least expect and incapable of making the right choices either because of the life we choose to live or the company we chose to keep and now I see one of the reasons why the bible advice that we serve the Lord in our youth because that makes it difficult for the dark faceless one to creep in and cripple a future so bight by a single mistake we make. Wish I knew God earlier, I definitely wouldn’t have picked up those cigarette sticks or poured a glass of champagne, talk more of those dry gins and bottles of my favorite lager beer I took off the crate and buried in me.

And funny enough, I picked up all these disgusting and health wrecking habits just about the time I made the biggest mistake of losing you. Ostensibly, the year 2000 was a deciding moment for me and delayed my destiny by this singular act, thus opening the door for evil to come in and can only thank the good Lord for showering me with so much grace that kept me alive till this day to be the one telling my story. You know, she was about six months gone when the abortion was carried out so there’s a face to this story and I was told he looked just like me and the thought of that kills me even more. Anyway, mum and I through the years have patched things up between us and I am sure she is doing great and misses you too. I am a grown up man now and indeed ready to take care of my responsibilities so please come back son and allow me make up for those lost years.

We can still rock those baggy jeans together, I tend to be growing younger in style everyday despite my white beards and don’t worry as well about the Nike shoes, got the store on a speed dial. I miss you son and today I’m finally free and hope the world learns from this and never mistake their blessing for a misfortune. Nothing is a mistake with God and though it may seem wrong out-rightly but if it’s destiny at work, you can never go wrong. You just have to be very careful diffusing the situation and handling it the best way possible. Our lives have been planned and scripted out even before our creation and let’s not disrupt our journey ignorantly, a single mistake can last us a whole life of pain and regret and that wouldn’t be our portion in Jesus name.

To the great people of the united states of the world, I will like to conclude by saying that this isn’t the time for sympathy and regrets, for the deed has already been done and we can only choose to educate our children so as not to find themselves making such a nasty fall that they might never be able to get up from. The road to destiny is a delicate and fragile one and the devil attacks us just at the time that our glory is about to spring up and shine bright. And to all those who find themselves rocking the same shoes like I did, it is time to stop hating yourself and do something about it.

No amount of pain and regret can change the past but we can choose to forgive our past and change the future. The future lies in our hands and the decisions we make today will determine if we are ready to let go of those bags full of worries and fear of the unknown and choose to run with the right team because there’s nothing you must have done that cannot be taken care of by the mercy of God. You just need to acknowledge your wrongs and repent from your old sinful ways and those lost years can be restored in just a twinkle of an eye. I know because I am a testimony to that and you can as well, God bless.

Kay Magnate

The Epistle...

Sailing side long the shallow water,

Near the sandbank of a beautiful stream,

And nature was called upon;

The windy breeze floats a letter

Along the path of mine.

Its colour was slivery,

Its beauty indeed cherubic

And boldly written was ‘A letter’.

I picked up ‘A letter’

Describes ‘she’ a jewel

Magical and priceless,

Handcrafted to soothe the blazing desires of pearly lords;

The investors of creation’s art

Hence, she becomes the crowned

That her heart expresses her exotic soul.

Nonetheless, a precious stone as such

Was long buried at the depth of the ocean,

Ancient years past,

In my wealth of experience

My heart only could bore this;

A boundless true love expression

Thus reads:

“A secret, there was once and

Still as long as the sun shines,

Love under the gloss of summer’s pride,

As it goes down at sundown

So as my love, genuine kisses

You a good night rest:

At the glory of dawn,

My heart rises with all

Strength and set ablaze with

The hottest flame of artless affection

You remain alive in my heart,

A thing that ever undies and

So sure remains even in a next world unforeseen

My heart will always linger

With ‘she’ my emerald stone

My ego boost high to the

Farthest distance of the raindrops,

The eternal miles of a lifetime

Cos I’m most satisfied in such time a little

My soul resides with ‘she’

In the unknown,

At the tail ends of the ocean

I guess it’s the loveliest place

For my elegant ‘she’,

Between her physical outlook and I,

We are blind and never

Could we sense our bodies ever?

But between my heart and hers

We forever fly in the escapades of carpet rides”.

It ended ‘yours sincerely’,

‘Captain I’.

I unreasoned such love tale existed ever

In my wildest conception,

It never would have been known to me

Ever in such presentation, terrific

And of the prettiest sheets ever seen

This letter still hangs up there

On a tree branch of bliss

Right here on a known earth

Far away from ‘PLANET EARTH’.

SUMMARY:

This piece of poetry is inspirational, romantic and highly imaginary. It exposes the ‘unrealities of true love’

A Woman's Worth (A Special Dedication)

Women are the most priceless and beautiful creatures gracing the earth and I deem it fit to dedicate this special and carefully written piece to the men for the glorious work done by the king creator himself and I just can't stop wondering what he must have been thinking about when he decided to bring them alive. No doubt, when we look at all the wonderful things that the bible tells us about the creation of the woman and why it came to be, it is safe to summarize it that they were created to complement us but then again, I think that would be me understating the astounding work done through Adam's ribs because they are just too breathtaking and not even words I believe can perfectly explain the awesomeness of what they really stand for.

You know, women are gods on their own and should be worshiped day and night and I hope we understand to what context that is because I hate to be misunderstood. Apparently, they are our mothers regardless of how old they are and when I say women, I mean every female being walking the surface of the earth because that distinct and unmatchable personality was inherited right from the first cry that announced their arrival to the world and into motherhood I must add. The beauty surrounding her being cannot be under-emphasized as they feel the most pain and yet have the prettiest smile, it is just unbelievable how they tend to possess so many amazing functions all in one body, china town must have taken a queue from that.

However, it's heartbreaking how so many underestimate the power of a woman and miss out on the great things embedded in them. The truth is, with them, what you give is what you get so I advice you begin to keep that smile radiated at all times. You can't begin to phantom the million doors a sincere prayer from a joy filled heart of a woman can open in just a matter of seconds and on the other hand, destinies have been truncated by that same tongue, you just have to decide how you want it used, either for you or against you and I admonish you go with the first option.

Ostensibly, the world is designed around them and what life tends to offer you, either good or bad can be traced back to the women in your life and to every successful man comes a lady. You know, it is impossible to hurt the women around you and find favor with men and that implies to the helpers of your destiny. How far you go in life can be determined by the number of ankle chains sweeping the floor while rendering prayers to the Lord and trust me, a prayer from a feminine lip that takes an hour for God to answer can take a month and even more coming from a man under the same circumstances. The power they exude cannot be quantified and though they may seem weak but we can't begin to conceptualize how heaven is moved by a drop of their tears.

I bless the day I was born into this world by an astonishing woman I call mother and you should feel the same if you understand the miracle surrounding your birth. I mean, we can't conjure up the unbearable pain they go through in that labor room and not forgetting the nine month duration of carrying and nurturing us in their tummy, so let's take a moment each day to hug and kiss, thanking them for showering us with so much love and a care that knows no bound. It's a wonderful feeling to be wrapped around their arms and that warm good night kiss that pampers us to bed keeps lingering in our hearts and leaves us wanting for more.

How perfect can our world be without them, it would have just been another male boarding school without a feminine touch gracing our slum books and if I'm allowed to just go ahead to hit the nail in the head, emphasizing a true opinion, then I'll enthusiastically attest without stuttering to how miserable we would have been without them. Basically, they are angels sent to us from God and they could also be our worst nightmare depending on the path we choose to travel when on a life adventure with them. They love to be pampered, loved, cared for and totally appreciated. You know the whole 'TLC' thing; Tender, Love & Care, that's a part of their initials you don't want to miss out tattooing their names to your world.

Now, may I conclude by saying that knowing a woman's worth starts with knowing yourself, if you really know who you are, you can never go wrong in your dealings with them. Love and cherish them because they are the pillars of our wealth and home. They love attention and here is a couple dollars I'm giving out so you can pay for some. Don't neglect her rights and welcome her contribution because they see beyond our greatest imagination, trust me. Never raise your hands on them or mark the day you do as the day you became cursed. There are just somethings that are unforgivable and that happens to top that very list. Never with your own hands chase your wife out of your home or it's as good as you chasing your wealth away. These and many more are secrets of life we may not know but have greatly truncated the destinies of man.

Life is deep and so is the word we speak, be careful not to tango with the negative utterances from the tongue of a broken heart. Quit playing games and start taking blames, let's know two wrongs cannot make a right especially with them. Show me a man moving from city to city exploring and doing great things and I will show you a woman on the altar moving from step to step, trying to get closer to her God, soliciting and holding forth for her man. And whether we like it or not but truly as the song goes, women run the world and someday I hope to find that special woman to complement and help me become the man I was created to be... God bless us all

Kay Magnate