We all have had our fair share of the heartaches and
heartbreaks and as funny as it may sound, but I’m actually glad they happened
as these times have thought me a lot about
myself, people, love and life in general. No doubt love is great and as a
matter of fact, it’s a wonderful feeling but the excruciating pain its ripple
effect inflicts on us makes it dame easy to change that smile we once had to an
upside down frown, which I believe logically explains why there’s such a thin
line between love and hate. However, I am most appreciative of these moments
and they are actually one of the major high notes of my journey through life but
what I still find hard to explain is how something that brought so much joy can
change so quickly to cause us angst and make us cry so badly.
Who am I? I am that guy, that individual, a bad boy turn
good and swiftly growing to be the man he was created to be, who hasn’t just
been heart broken by women he gave his heart to and loved unconditionally but
has also broken a couple hearts to, so I guess that qualifies me to talk about
love as I’ve been through it all; the good, the bad and the ugly when it comes
to the matters of the heart. Growing up as a kid, all I ever wanted was to love
unconditionally and sincerely but I still can’t remember how and when I managed
to loose myself, my priorities and goals as regards relationships, only to fall
in love with a selfish and heartless me, who activated the beast mode in me and
hurting a couple pure and innocent soul in the process and just before you
castigate and bury me alive, love already did, trust me.
You know, love knows how to fight its own battles and it’s
true what they say about karma fighting back and hunting us when we least
expect, and that dude if he was human must have hated my guts so badly, as he had
a first row seat to my life and never hesitated to pay me an uninvited visit
each time I got my hands dirty after a fair game of card. Apparently, I have
always had to learn the hard way and hardly got away with anything I did wrong.
I have had to pay back in full and double sometimes and that basically explains
my recent records of the heartaches and heartbreaks but thanks to grace, I haven’t
given up on love and never will. Through my life’s love journey, I have learnt a
lot about women, life, love, hate and relationships and I’ve come to understand
so much as regards putting my cards plain on the table and keeping my hands
clean if I don’t want that same fire I’m igniting through my lies to turn back
to burn me.
Love is kind and patient and a loving heart, pure and
tolerant, it makes excuses for the one it loves. However, let’s be careful not
to abuse its privileges or we watch it turn back real quick and aggressively
that is, just like a rattle snake whose tail has just been stepped on. The
truth is, for every good heart you allowed to cry attract a million chocolate
boxes to another who’s just playing with yours and anticipating the day to say goodbye.
Life is a bitch, isn’t it, but so are your words if they don’t percolate with the
truth. The way you lay your bed, so you’ll lie in it. If you give me lemons, I’ll
bring some vodka and we can mix it up and start a party, that’s what love is
meant to be about; helping and complementing each other. You can’t leave others
in the dark and expect to be shown the light. If you throw jabs at me, you can be
rest assured that there’s someone out there heading your way with a knockout
punch. Whatever you sow is what you
reap, period.
You know, I’ve spent quite a number of years as an ignorant
kid sagging my pants as I walked through the surface of the earth and most of
which I had the choice of dressing right and staying sharp but I chose to act
immature regardless. Through these times, I’ve also had the opportunity of finding
peace with the old selfless me that wouldn’t hurt a fly but my ego had to meet
the tiger in me and that got things pretty messed up. Now what am I trying to
say? We are filled with choices each day and solely responsible for the
consequences of whatever decision we choose to take. God wouldn’t force His will
on us despite being the creator of the universe and neither will life. You are as
good as your last decision because that gives birth to the next phase of your
life so be careful when making these choices.
I will like to conclude by saying that love happens to
define our existence in so much way than we actually think, it is the true
essence of life itself and we are nothing without it. Even the creation of the
earth and everything in it, which includes us of course, was done out of love
and you’re dead the moment you cease to exude it. However, the funny thing about it all is that
there is no manual to how to love, it happens naturally. Any love forced is
lust and headed for the bin. Through my life’s love journey, I’ve seen people
been cheated on and hated for been too caring and loving, and on the other hand, I’ve seen people been loved and
cherished for lying and treating their spouse like a piece of trash, it's just funny, the ways of love. You know,
I’ve heard a million definitions to this four letter words I've spent the last couple of minutes talking about, but if only we look deep enough, we
would realize that it’s only love that can truly explain itself. Just be you, be ready and love will find you. True
love I say is you finding that part of yourself that says I’m ready. We don’t find
true love, true love finds us.